Who am I? A person that's troublesome to her friends? That should just die and have no one mourn over her? That should just become an invisible person who's soul purpose is to give others happiness and she's void of emotions?
Yeah... I know that these thoughts are very dark... and would probably scare my friends... my true friends... but I would always have these thoughts bottled up inside of me... never once expressing it... even though I would write dark emo-ish lyrics to get my heart beating with innocence that my face wouldn't show any dark emotions, such as huge anger and depression.I know that I can't think things through that well... and I know that I bug my friends a lot... but that's because I don't want to become that invisible person all of a sudden who's being ignored throughout a conversation with friends... like a third wheel among a huge crowd... and you're just there to hold the friendship together!I don't know if moving to southern california was a good thing for me... or a bad decision along a windy road towards my undecided future. Sure, I have friends here in southern cal... and have friends and family in northern cal... but my heart hurts so much... that I would just cry silently to sleep.So, who am I? A college student with no future, no friends, and definitely a bothersome thorn on her friends' side.
Tags: bothersome troublesome thorn on a friend
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Current Music: What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts or Mark Wills
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