Destiny...

Did you feel that your life was upside down, inside out? Did you feel that you were forgotten by your friends and family sometimes? Well, this is what I usual feel when none of my friends and family talk to me.

It was during times I go through facebook. I send things, such as snow globes, christmas gifts, growing plants, and other stuff, to my friends. I love to make my friends feel as though they are wanted in life. But sometimes, whenever I do this, I become sad because I feel that I'm ignored, like I'm invisible to them whenever we hang or talk. Whenever I talk to my friends through AIM, I feel that they are ignoring me whenever I ask a question, like how are you and are you all right and all other random stuff. With family, it's worse. I'm usually the dark one, the weird one of the family. I do other stuff instead. My family actually forgets about me, such as my sister leaving, never asking me to hang with her. I'm usually the one who has to do the asking. I don't know, I might be rambling on, but I feel like I was abandoned by my friends and family. I can just see all my friends and family become successful, laughing and taunting me, the one in the corner, the one who's in the dark of all things. My heart breaks whenever I think about this.

Do my friends and family think that I'm an annoying brat who wants something from them? I don't know what they think, but it hurts if they really do think of me as a brat. I just want to be free and hang with them, yet they probably think that I'm such a crybaby and can't think for herself. So, one question remains: What do they REALLY think of me as we spend time together?!

Tags: loneliness heartbroken thinking
Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: Sacrifice - T.a.T.u.

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